‘There is a certain air of tragedy surrounding you at the moment’


I think that about sums up my life this past month. A quote from a co-worker of mine as I told her what was going on in my life lately, and you know, she wasn’t wrong.

The reason or reasons why I’ve such a FailWriter! lately goes a little something like this. If you’ve been following my Tumblr you know I’ve been dealing with a sick relative – my grandfather – was diagnosed with terminal cancer and we’ve been nursing him at home between myself, my mother and my aunt. It’s been… rough, to say the least. But, we’ve soldiered on because that’s what you do, right? People get old, they’ve made people who’ve made people so we’re all there to take care of the first people, right?

I gave up my internship which I loved and adored – the work was something I knew like the back of my hand and the people were awesome. I got another job, a full-full time job with full time responsibilities. Two weeks ago was when I started, and that’s when everything started to fall down. I was ill, flu, and feeling like shit to be honest, and starting a new job with new people and lots of tasks when all you want to do is curl up and sleep for a week because you can’t breathe, well, it’s not great is it? That happened, and then, then the other thing happened. My father, who is a young man in the eyes of …. you know… older people (he’s 54) collapsed while out shopping and was taken into hospital. They said it was clot they said it was going to be fine.

They were really wrong though because it wasn’t a clot.

I went to visit him that Saturday, and not sat down with him five minutes when the doctor and nurse asked us to ‘come with them’.

Dubious no doubt, and even more so when I was asked if I was his ‘next of kin’?

Apparently I am, and apparently they remove your tact gene in medical school because they sat us down and informed us that hey, sorry but you’ve a massive mass on your right lung and hey, it’s lung cancer. Going on to provide no comfort, or details of what was happening (or in this case no happening for WEEKS) leaving both of us just sitting there in a daze, and that feeling of something having slapped you across the face and that you were in free fall. We still don’t know details so it’s as if we’re all just waiting for that other shoe to drop, that other very heavy fucker of a shoe. For now, we wait.

So there was that.

Not that I use this as an excuse for not writing because being honest I don’t need an excuse, this isn’t my job and as much as I love it and you guys… you know I realize it’s not the main priorities in life but it is one of mine, not the main ones, but ones none the less. So, I figured a little touching of the bases was maybe in order, and I do like to write out my feelings from time to time, they help line everything up.

In short, life is touch we need to wear helmets – and I really need a strong one right now!



Ps. Flakes is on the go from Scribe, an idea of mine that I allowed her to adopt (ahem or actively forced her to write, whatever…) I’ve added a guest post of the EPOV if you want to check that out for now. Thanks!





New Story!

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I’ve started a story called Flakes for ChanelAddict! I slightly stole the whole story idea from her, but I promise you she’s okay with it/urged me to do so. This was intended to be a one-shot for her birthday, but as she very gently told me, it’s the kind of story that needs tension, and tension needs more than one chapter. She’s very right, so this will be a multi-chapter story.

Fair warning: I do not have this complete, and I’m going to be posting as I finish chapters. If that’s not your thing, feel free to wait until it’s finished to start.

Summary: In 1720 England, Susannah is picked up by her bethrothed’s son and taken to Sweden so that she can marry him. The journey is not a safe one with a war going on and a growing attraction between Susannah and her traveling companion.

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Wherein life gets hectic and writing takes a backseat

Hi guys!


Remember me?


Yeah, I know, it’s been a month and no updates!

Life has got kind of insane. I’ve been dealing an ill relative lately a lot so lots of trips to the hospital and very little sleep. I’ve also been going through finding a new job and all that comes with the new start – leaving my internship was so hard as I loved everyone there and really felt appreciated. But this new start is a great opportunity as well so I can’t fault it. I do have a chapter of NSGE almost done which I hope to have posted either tonight or tomorrow. And I will be wrapping that up in the next chapter or two so I hope you’re still with me on that one!


How’s life? Is everyone good? I hope you’re good and just thought I should touch base! xox

Not So Great Expectations – 26


It’s been a long-ish time coming I know, but you know my reasons for the delays… ugh the anger still hasn’t subsided at all, I don’t know about you but it’s just getting worse the more interviews Bucky does. DNW.

But this is separate, or as separate as I can try and make it! I hope you enjoy and if you do (and even if you don’t) you’ll say so. I won’t bite, I’m not that kind of writer!




Not So Great Expectations – 26

Disgusted : Trueblood Edition.

So. Hm. There’s that huh? I still haven’t watched the episode, but I’ve seen all the gifs and responses and it’s made me want to stay as far away from it as possible. What it’s also done is made me disgusted at the writing ‘team’ behind trueblah, it’s made me disgusted at their marketing ploys (HEY PENIS PENIS SWEDISH PENIS LET’S PIMP THIS BEFORE WE SHOW A MAN BURNING TO DEATH SIMPLY BECAUSE HE’S NUDE. ERIC’S BITCHES WILL LOVE THAT SHIT) and made me disgusted for the state of the characters. Just, what in the ever living fuck y’all?

If you’re on Tumblr no doubt you’ve seen the rants and disappointment of just about everyone of us that were on board with that show. We suffered (yes, suffered) through so many plot holes and fuckery and this is what it comes down to? Stepford Sookie, Eric a long forgotten blimp in her life, Bill is glorified and celebrated and FAMOUS and Eric ‘dies’ away from everything he knows? He flew off in his grief to … what? Sunbathe? That was his mission, leaving his daughters  – a needy one and a super new born at that? He didn’t care who Warlow was or why Sookie had him tied up, he didn’t as questions didn’t think to get involved?

I’m at an utter loss over this mess, and as such it’s killed any writing inspo I may have had. It’s been no secret my love for writing this ship has waned in recent times, and finishing and updating my stories used to be fun and something I couldn’t wait to to – but without much inspiration – not to mention the ill treatment of these characters in EVERY form of ‘canon’ it’s made it near impossible.

I’m ashamed to want to write for them considering their canon counterparts.

Just a heads up.

Maybe it’ll change soon, but as of now.

Not So Great Expectations – 25


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I know I said on Tumblr that I was posting this tomorrow, but eh. I’ll post over on FF.NET tomorrow, but you guys get it first. The new chapter that you all voted for, NSGE 25. I know it sucks, as a reader when the writer (s) disappear for months on end leaving you mid-story. But, I do hope if you’ve been following me on here you’ve been giving my other stories a chance in the mean time, if you haven’t – hey- do that! 😀 It’s been a stressful few weeks here on CA Island, but we’re marching on and so I’ll just shush and let you go read the chapter. It’s very much a transitional chapter for these two but hopefully the ending is the beginning of more adventures for this cheesy two-some! Thoughts as always are encouraged!


Pick the next chapter.

Thanks to  Trublah and their cockblocking ship separating ways, I am very lack in inspiration to update these days. I know I have two fics currently WIP and how annoying that is as a reader (sorry, again) so hey… vote!

Well hi there.


Just thought I’d put together a quick post to catch up on a few things. Firstly, a massiiiiiiiiiiiive thank you to all of you who have sent me messages, reviews, and likes on the last chapter (and all of them really) of War at Heart. That one was my baby for a long time and it was sadtimes to see it go, even if I ended it on a super cheesy note :o. But thank you and know that it means the world that you guys keep turning in for my messes! Secondly, I have a new chapter of Canon fic Absolution open, and I’m faffing about with that, but since it’s been an utter age and a half since I updated I’ve forgotten my own plot (I’m epic, clearly?) so I’ve been re-reading trying to find the voice again. I hope to have a new update up within the week or at the latest next weekend. If you haven’t checked it out and fancy an alternative to Trueblah, feel free to check it out here.

Third of all, as some of you know I also dabble in fashion-y, beauty rambles on my other blog and I have a giveaway going at the minute, so I thought why not let you know about it. Everyone loves a freebie right? Check it out here if interested!

I think that’s about it, how’s life treating you? Good I hope! xo


War at Heart – Epilogue


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War at Heart – Epilogue

Here it is peeps, the very final chapter, the Epilogue of War at Heart! It’s been a hell of a run and saying thank you for all the support and encouragement and whatnot over the past year and half has been utterly fantastic and amazing. I hope that one day if I start using this writing obsession for my ‘own’ stuff, the support will half as great! Enjoy & as always, love to hear what you think!


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War At Heart : Chapter 40


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So this is it folks! After more than a year on the go, War at Heart is all but done. I’m a little sad, and a little relieved to be honest. It’s been a long road with this one and for those of you that have been with me on it from day one, it has been an even longer one for you waiting!

Here it be, the final chapter of War at Heart. ❤ xo


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War at Heart 37


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Hey guys! So, does anyone still remember this? I can’t believe it was last updated in December! Shame on me, really! But I’m aiming to wrap this up in three chapters so hopefully now that the goal is set I can find the inspiration from somewhere to give it a good enough ending for the story itself and for you guys reading it! If you’re still with me on this, bless you! It turns out for Sookie being married comes with it’s own set of issues! xo

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Not So Great Expectations 24

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So, this is super late but I do have a lot of valid reasons. One is I started a new full time job and it’s demanding a lot of time as you can imagine and much more energy than I have these days. So writing and blogging and the internetting in general took a backseat for a week or so, I hope you understand! But! There be a chapter of NSGE that won the poll ready and waiting. So, I hope you enjoy and if you do leave a little review as they do work wonders for the inspiration! Have a great weekend guys! xo